Relationship of Abdal with Animal Kingdom

The Wisdom of Animals | by William Chittick | www.ibnarabisociety.org

animal kingdom and muslimFor God has made you more needy of them than they are needy of you… By God, when the dumb beasts have more independence than you, how can it occur to you that you are superior to them?… Very true are the words of him who said, “No man will be destroyed if he knows his own worth”. 
(Futūhāt 3: 490. 10)

More than any other Muslim thinker, Ibn ‘Arabi dedicated his teachings to clarifying the presence of the divine wisdom in all things and the human necessity of conforming to that wisdom. The arguments he offers are at once metaphysical and scriptural, cosmological and psychological, scientific and ethical. He addresses every dimension of human and cosmic existence (‘cosmic’ refers to Muslim Cosmology based on The Quran – as appose to Big Bang Universe theory, Plasma Universe theory, etc.) and speaks constantly of the inherent goodness of all of creation and the human duty to respect the rights (huqūq) of all creatures – not simply the rights of God and the rights of our fellow beings.

If there is a single scriptural theme to his writings, after tawhīd, it is certainly the prophetic saying: “Give to each that has a right (haqq) its right”. He reads this in conjunction with the Quranic insistence that God created the universe and everything within it bi’-l-haqq, that is, by means of and through the right, the real, the appropriate, the true. He understands this to mean that everything in the universe is right, true, and real.

Human beings, however, are not necessarily given the insight to recognize the truth and rightness of all things. In order to achieve such recognition, they need prophetic guidance, and only then can they live a life that is right, true, and appropriate. That right and appropriate life demands that they respond rightly and appropriately to the rightness and appropriateness of all things – to the extent of human capacity. In other words, the divine wisdom that has created human beings has imposed upon them the duty of “giving to everything that has a right its right”.

Divine Reality of Animals and Particles
In both chapters on dumb beasts, Ibn ‘Arabi explains why they have this name, bahīma, which the Arabic dictionaries define as quadruped or animal. Ibn ‘Arabi suggests that we can understand the significance of the term if we remember that it derives from the same root as mubham, which means dubious, obscure, vague, unclear. For example, in Chapter 378 he writes,

Each created thing has a specific speech taught to it by God. It is heard by those whose hearing God has opened up to its perception. All movement and craftsmanship that become manifest from animals and do not become manifest save from a possessor of reason, reflection, and deliberation, along with all the measures that are seen therein, signify that they have a knowledge of this in themselves. (Futūhāt 3: 488. 4)

animal and muslim - animal talkIbn ‘Arabi goes on to explain that animals perform many skillful deeds and construct marvelous things in a manner that suggests that they must be intelligent and rational. Yet observers cannot perceive any sort of rational faculty within them, so they remain puzzled as to how animals can do such things. This puzzlement, of course, has not been diminished by modern science, which still struggles to explain the multifarious skills of animals. So, Ibn ‘Arabi writes,

This may be why they are called “dumb beasts”, that is, because of the “obscurity” of the affair – except for us, because it is as clear as it can be. The obscurity that has overcome some people is because of their lack of unveiling in this, so they know the created things only in the measure of what they witness from them.

In continuing this discussion, Ibn ‘Arabi has recourse to a few Quranic verses to show that faith is on the side of those who witness the real nature of things through unveiling.

Even though the rational thinkers and the common people say that something in the cosmos is neither alive nor an animal, in our view God gave every such thing, when He created it, the innate disposition to recognize and know Him. Each is alive and speaks rationally in glorifying its Lord. The faithful perceive this through their faith, and the folk of unveiling perceive it in its actual entity. (Futūhāt 3: 489. 6)

As is always the case with Ibn ‘Arabi’s writings, he soon gets around to explaining why we should be concerned about the fact that all things have knowledge from God and that all things express their knowledge through speech. Here I can mention one basic lesson, and this is that the awareness of all things should encourage us to have shame. “Shame” (hayā’) is not considered a great virtue nowadays in the West, but it certainly has had an honorable role to play in many civilizations, not least Islam. The Prophet said, “Every religion has its character trait [khuluq], and the character trait of Islam is shame” (Ibn Māja, Zuhd 17).

Shame is a close ally of ihsān, “doing the beautiful”, which the Prophet described as “worshipping God as if you see Him”. If one acts as if one sees God, shame will be a constant companion. And, if we understand that all things are aware and all have the ability to speak, this can only increase our sense of shame. Everything is watching us, and everything has the ability to speak to God about our activities. Ibn ‘Arabi writes,

Someone may come to know that there is no existent thing that is not alive and speaking. In other words, there is nothing that is not a rational animal, whether it is called inanimate, plant, or dead. This is because there is nothing, whether or not it stands by itself, that does not glorify its Lord in praise, and this attribute belongs only to something that is described as alive.

Islam and animal - particles talkOnce someone comes to witness the life of all things, he will be full of shame, not only when he is in jalwa, that is, in public with other people, but also when he is in khalwa, that is, alone in a private retreat. He will see that in fact he is never alone, for he can never escape a location that surrounds him. And, even if he could escape his surroundings, he would still have shame before his bodily members and organs, for they are the means whereby he does what he does. He knows that on the Day of Resurrection, his bodily members will be called to witness, and they will bear witness truthfully. So, someone like this can never be in khalwa. “When someone achieves this state”, Ibn ‘Arabi writes, “he has joined the degree of the dumb beasts”, who are aware of the presence of God.

In short, Ibn ‘Arabi maintains that dumb beasts possess an exalted knowledge and understanding from God, and he concludes that anyone who considers himself superior to the beasts is ignorant of his own situation. He stresses that such ignorance is characteristic of the philosophical and theological approaches to Islamic learning – not to speak of the modern scientific disciplines. In short, his advice to his readers – if they are not among the folk of unveiling – is as follows:

Consider, O you who are veiled, how your level compares to that of the dumb beasts. The dumb beasts recognize you, they recognize that to which your situation will go back, and they recognize that for which you were created. But you are ignorant of all of this. (Futūhāt 3: 489. 29)

Divine Relationship of Human with Animals
Let me turn to a second topic that Ibn ‘Arabi commonly addresses when he talks about animals. This is related to the specific divine name that exercises its sway over the twenty-fifth letter of the Breath of the all-Merciful. This name is al-Mudhill, the Abaser, which is typically contrasted with al-Mu’izz, the Exalter. People naturally assume that it is much better to be exalted than to be abased, but Ibn ‘Arabi wants to show that animals, who are ruled by the name Abaser, have a much more exalted position with God than most human beings. This is precisely because animals gladly accept their abasement, whereas human beings tend to forget that they are nothing in the face of God.

They always want to be something, so they seek exaltation. By claiming to be what they are not, however, they fall into heedlessness and they rebel against their own God-given situation. Hence, the most exalted of all human beings in God’s eyes are in fact those who are the most abased before Him. Abasement at root is nothing other than ‘ubūdiyya, the quality of being an ‘abd, a servant or slave. That is why, in Ibn ‘Arabi’s reading, the most exalted of all human beings, the perfect human being, is also “the perfect servant” (al-’abd al-kāmil), that is, the most abased of all creatures before God.

In explaining the nature of abasement, Ibn ‘Arabi turns to the Quranic notion of taskhīr, “subjection”. It is God inasmuch as He is the Abaser who subjects some creatures to other creatures. In fact, Ibn ‘Arabi spends most of the section on animals in the chapter on the Breath of the all-Merciful unpacking and explaining the reality of subjection. He begins the section like this:

God says, “We abased [the cattle] to them, and some of them they ride, and some they eat” [36: 72]. He also says, “He subjected to you everything in the heavens and everything in the earth, all from Him” [45: 13], so animals are included in this. This is the ruling property of the name Abaser in the cosmos… God made some of them subjected to others through the name Abaser… He says, “He has elevated some of them over others in degrees so that some of them may take others in subjection” [43: 32]. (Futūhāt 2: 465. 12)

Islam and animal - Mutual AbasementIbn ‘Arabi continues this discussion by pointing out that subjection is two-sided. In other words, when something is subjected to you, you are subjected to it. He explains how this works with the example of a king and his subjects. The Quranic verse just cited says that God has elevated some over others with the “degree” (daraja) that He has given them. In the case of a king, God has given him the degree of kingship, and this degree allows him to rule over others. The king subjects his citizens precisely because of the degree, and hence the citizens are abased before the king and must do what he commands. However, it works the other way too, for, as Ibn ‘Arabi says, “Among the divine names, the Abaser rules over both sides”. He writes,

The degree of the citizens and the subjects requires that they subject the king to themselves, for he must guard and defend them, fight against their enemies, judge disputes among them, and seek their rights [huqūq]. (Futūhāt 2: 465. 22)

Ibn ‘Arabi then points out that subjection also applies to the relationship between God and man. The name Abaser rules over both sides. Although man is abased before God, God is also abased before man. This is a version of Ibn ‘Arabi’s famous discussion of the mutual relationship between Lord (rabb) and vassal (marbūb), or the God (ilāh) and that which is “godded over” (ma’lūh). His explanation runs like this:

God says, “He is God in the heavens and in the earth” [6: 3]. He says, “He subjected to you what is in the heavens and what is in the earth, all together” [45: 13]. Luqman said to his son, “O my son, if it should be but the weight of one grain of mustard-seed, and though it be in a rock, or in the heavens, or in the earth, God shall bring it forth” [31: 16], for God is in the earth, He is in heaven, He is in the rock, and He is with us wherever we are. The Creator is never separate from the created thing, nor is the Abaser separate from the act of abasing. If the two were to be separate, this description would be separate from God, and the name would disappear.

abdal allahIbn ‘Arabi then explains that when God says in the Quran, “I created jinn and mankind only to worship Me” [51: 56], this means that He created them to abase themselves before Him, so He created them with the name Abaser. At the same time, God describes how He guards over all things and preserves all things. Like the king in the example, God’s degree of Godliness subjects Him to what the cosmos seeks from Him, that is, the preservation of its existence.

In continuing his argument, Ibn ‘Arabi explains that God abases human beings by placing within them the attributes of poverty, indigence, and need. As the Quran says, “O people, you are the poor toward God, and God – He is the Rich, the Praiseworthy” (35: 15). Because of their need, people then become abased before anything in which they see what they need, and everything needs something else. The cosmos is filled with mutual need, which is in fact the need of all things for God, whose attributes are displayed in the needed objects. It follows that it is need that ties all of existence together. The well-being (salāh) of the entire cosmos depends upon need. So, Ibn ‘Arabi concludes, with perhaps a touch of hyperbole,

No other name bestows general well-being on the cosmos like the name Abaser, and there is nothing in the Divine Presence that has a property like this name. Its property permeates this world and the next world constantly. When the Real allows one of the gnostics to witness it and when He discloses Himself to the gnostic within it and from it, there is no one among God’s servants more felicitous than he, and no one with more knowledge of God’s mysteries through unveiling. (Futūhāt 2: 466. 3)

The Truth of Mutual Abasement
As for the rest of us, the lesson we need to learn from the mutual abasement of all things is to understand who we are in the cosmic economy. We should never overestimate our own worth. We should not consider ourselves exalted, because in fact we are abased before the divine power. Ibn ‘Arabi explains this in one of the chapters on the dumb beasts:

I AM with each

Know that even though God has subjected and abased the dumb beasts to man, you should not be heedless of the fact that you are subjected to them. You look to their well-being by watering and feeding them, by cleaning their places, by coming into contact with dung and waste because of them, and by protecting them from the heat and cold that harm them. This and similar things are because the Real has subjected you to them and has placed need for them in your soul. …

So, you have no superiority over them through subjection, for God has made you more needy of them than they are needy of you. Do you not see how God’s Messenger became angry when he was asked about the stray she-camel? He said, “What is she to you? She has her feet and her stomach. She will find water and eat from the trees until her master finds her” (Muslim, Luqta 1).

So, God did not make the animals needy toward you, but He placed within you the need for them. All dumb beasts that have the means to flee from you will do so, and this is only because they have no need for you, and they have been given the innate knowledge that you will harm them. The fact that you search for them and that you exert effort in acquiring things from them shows that you are needy toward them.

By God, when the dumb beasts have more independence than you, how can it occur to you that you are superior to them? Very true are the words of him who said, “No man will be destroyed if he knows his own worth”. (Futūhāt 3: 490. 10)

Eternal Love : Part 07

A blog by Current Value | Proclaim – I write this for myself (critique, condemn, argue, advice for myself). If readers find any good in it, glory and praise be for Allah alone. Bismillahi Al-Rahman Al-Raheem. “We”, “Our”, and “Us” refer to myself -  “I” the soul + “I” the human. That’s how I talk to My Self, as “We”.

ETERNAL LOVE : PART 07 – THE CROWN

To experience True Eternal Love with Allah is a journey from being an Insan to an Abdal, from being a “free person” to being a “slave of Allah”, from being a “somebody” to being a “property of Allah”, from the consciousness of “I am independent” to the consciousness of “I belong to Allah”, from the fear of “I will die” to the contentment of “I will definitely meet Allah my Love”… It starts with ‘know thyself’ – conscious of being a worthless, stupid, hopeless Abdal – and Salat. Both are about being most humble infront of Allah and inside Allah’s kingdom.

How can Abdal live with each other in Heaven while having their god ego intact? It will be like living on planet Earth which the Angels worried about (Al-Baqarah:30-33). Thus the god ego shouldn’t be with the Abdal in heaven, the god ego must exclusively be with Allah alone. That is why Allah program this finite life as it is, programmed it with pain and misery of illusional ideal of life, so that Insan will choose on their own to become a real Abdal, choose to kill the god ego. After the god ego is gone from Our consciousness of being, We will see that it is not right to hurt anyone or anything cos everything belongs to Allah.

How could We hurt the river, the soil, the nature when All of them belong to Allah? How could we not treat the animal for slaughter with honor when the animals belong to Allah? How could We kill the enemy without honor when they all belong to Allah? How could We hurt the feeling of a straying Muslim, an infidel, an Atheist, and those who do not believe in Allah while all of them belong to Allah? While We KNOW they are specifically created by Allah in definite quota to exist with Us as Our Test in this 3D realm. All of them must exist and were given value by Allah… If We fail Our Test – of the god ego “Im better than them infidels and lowly useless Muslims” – Heaven is not the proper place for Our existence… We may feel the sadness of Eternal Love in Hell fire. A broken-hearted Existent Who deserves it.

Insan has the rights to fav something. The song Bleed by Meshuggah is Our fav song, and Surah Al-Fatihah is Our fav Surah. It OPENS the way to The Eternal Love. We should look at the first two Ayat of Al-Fatihah, study it, understand it, memorise it, and practice it in Our everyday life as an Insan. If We remember, Insha Allah.

Al-Fatihah:01 – “Bismillahi Rahmani Raheem”

Always and only by the existence of the name “Allah” that everything else can exist in total submission • Allah who owns the Divine Image named Al-Rahman, The Safekeeping character that authorise all existents good and bad, seen and unseen, matter and events, law and order, time and space, realms and dimensions; administering the regulation, the pain, the pleasure, the fate, the security of all existents in this realm and at the Judgement Day in supreme perfection; which is Positioned On The Throne (Ta-Ha:5) as how Allah wished it to be. To Care • Allah who owns the Divine Image named Al-Raheem, The Merciful character that loves the worthy ones, applying selected memories from the infinite universe of potentiality written by The Qalam and kept in Lauh Mahfuz as education in knowing and choosing, helping the worthy to grow as willing consciousness to submit, witness and admire what is beyond meaning (The Signs) in creations and events for the sake of True Eternal Love relationship, fulfilling the worthy’s hope and need for infinite love and security. To Love.

THUS when We consume energy (F&B) with this ayat, We are amazed at the art and creation of food and taste brought forth by Al-Rahman from the womb of creativity, while Al-Raheem had chosen the Halal one for Us and what it really means. It means “I Favor You”, so be humble and have pity for others who are not in favor.

Note: Allah’s Divine Image consists of 99 Names. Al-Rahman and Al-Raheem are two of Allah’s Divine Image (Names/Attributes/Characters/Status/Vocation) and NOT Allah as an essence, or as a whole, or an object in itself. Thus the Names can be everywhere (encompassing), somewhere (related to time and space), nowhere (not related to time and space) and anywhere (total freedom) as how Allah wishes the Names to BE, as shown in Surah Ta-Ha (“Al-Rahmanu Ala Al-Arsh Astawa”, “Al-Rahman above Al-Arsh sitting”- Ta-Ha:5). Therefore those who argue about Allah’s Divine Image, treat the Names as living things beside Allah, or as an essence, are closer to being lost. “Finality, all Insan at LOSS!” (Al-Asr:2). And those who argue about Allah’s whereabout by referring to the nature/position of the Divine Names are also in danger of lost. Basically, those who choose to get involve in arguments, any arguments, are losers at loss (Al-Asr:2)… We should avoid argument. Allah is the centre of Totality, but the centre is not the centre of The Eternal, for “outside”, “inside” and “centre” are meaningless (nonexistent) for Allah as The Eternal, which reality is NOT in Insan’s 3D perception as semantically exposed by Allah’s Divine Names in The Quran. Thus Allah is Above And The Centre of Everything Exist, if only Insan can comprehend what this cosmos is beyond all dimensions, Insha Allah… So, even though The Mercy of The Merciful is infinite and will Never end, yet Allah divided it into exactly one hundred sections, where one is for this 3D realm, and ninety-nine for the future realm starting at the beginning of Judgement Day where The 99 Mercy remains Infinite forever. Allah’s Divine Names could be perplexing to our logical “thinking”, but that’s how Allah Al-Haq is, amazingly perplexing mysteriously. Don’t We love Allah for being that?… I Love Allah!..

Al-Fatihah:02 – “Alhamdulillahi Rabbil Alamin”

The highest of pinnacle and infinite mass of glorifying praise belongs to the Supreme Being Alone, Allah (which refers to Allah in previous Ayat), most worthy of owning and controlling me the worthless, the secondary, the lowly self who could not think of the incomprehensible word to glorify Allah beyond the “beyond” except with what has been taught by Allah • Who owns the Divine Image named The Rabb, The Owner of all existents, The Master of the created slaves, having The Sole Rights in Total Ownership of the Alamin • The Alamin, everything else that is not Allah, the Great Cosmos of the infinite universes wherein the finite 3D realm, containing the seen and unseen, the memories that are being witnessed and not yet witnessed and never been witnessed, and all that were created as past, present and future into one single format, in the surface of time and dimensions, existing below Allah’s All Encompassing Throne as a weaker cute tiny-weeny being and totally belongs to Allah Almighty The Owner forever…

We should be thankful by saying “Alhamdulillahi Rabbil Alamin” for Allah rules the existents with the Divine Image Al-Rahman on top of all other Names, “My Mercy is above My Wrath”. But normally Insan thinks in 3D perception and imagine all other Names are below Al-Rahman, below The Throne, in the cosmos, which is not correct, the apposite of Reality. If Allah never placed The Divine Image Al-Rahman on top of The Throne, We will always got deleted for hurting each other’s feelings, and for doing other egoistic judgments in life. Be conscious and thankful of Allah that without Eternal Love that begins all these, We have no relationship with Allah, and have no rights to exist.

Both the Ayat above (may be refer as “Bismillah” and “Alhamdulillah”), are the Opening to the True Eternal Love. So, with the knowing of Our true state of being (as a worthless dead stupid loser Abdal sans the god ego), plus Our effort to perform Salat, and with both Bismillah and Alhamdulillah being Our standard phrases, We have a potential to become “the beloved of Allah”, and experience True Eternal Love. Insha Allah. But its not a wish to become ‘special’ and ‘exclusive’ like ‘Sufis’ or ‘Mystics’ looking for the truth, instead its given to anyone’s honest intention of “How do I love You Allah? Is it possible? I’m scarred…”. Be more humble than the Sufis and Mystics.

For the ayat to become Our essence, We should practice Bismillah and Alhamdulillah on everything that We do, including on activities that humans deemed as not right or dirty, such as sexual intercourse or taking a piss or shitting. Allah is the One who is allowing Us, enabling Us, to perform those activities with it’s own unique Motion and Energy, so We should start with “Bismillah” and says “Alhamdulillah” during and after… How can an Abdal not say Alhamdullilah for being and experiencing all the motion and energy, and the Nikmah embedded in it? How amazing and pleasing the pleasure of releasing Our constipation? How pleasing to make a turn by steering during driving? Who is The Rabb who owns the copyright of all these Motions and Energies? Who is the Rahman who administer all the Nikmah? “To whom the Kingdom belongs today?”… It’s good enough that We are not deleted forever. That was scary…

We should also practice Alhamdulillah when We are given problems, pains or heartbreaks by Al-Rahman. We fall and injured our knee, say Alhamdulillah. Accidentally burnt Our finger during cooking, say Alhamdulillah. A dude call Us ‘bastard son of a bitch’, say Alhamdulillah. Sneezing heavily during summer, say Alhamdulillah. Stuck at the traffic light, say Alhamdulillah. We will see Divine Wisdom if We practice that constantly, We will see it very clearly, and We will appreciate the bad stuff and heartbreaks as predestined lessons for Us the Abdal by Al-Raheem, so that We may recognise Allah’s Love and Interest. It’s amazing to see that “effect” in this 3D realm is actually the Cause for the “cause”. Allah is Most Amazing!

Exercising both Ayat 1 + 2 of Al-Fatihah during all our activities and experiences shall help Us remember Allah automatically (zikrullah) without using the zikir beads, which should remind Us to be aware and conscious of the surrounding Ibadillahi Salihin, seen and unseen, and so We try to respect and be careful. If We failed, say “Astaghfirullah.” for Allah is Al-Raheem beside Al-Rahman. It’s even better to say Bismillah in full – “Bismillahi Rahmani Raheem”, for the person who says it in full acknowledged the fact that Al-Rahman is on The Throne safekeeping everything (a Divine Decision) and Al-Raheem favors the person who says it in full. Actually it is important to say it in full if its not a burden for every Muslims, since the Ayat is like the essence of True Eternal Love. Please myself, please say it in full.

So We practice these two Ayat constantly. It may seems small, like a lame effort, but with consistency, the total repetition of the two Ayat will reach a sufficient quota for Our Qalb to be able to “Re-Call” the true Eternal Relationship between I and Allah. And then life will change gradually… for the journey of Eternal Love shall begun again for the Witness and the Witnessed. Help Me Allah with Love! cos I’m totally suck… You are The Crown forever, O Al-Rahman, help me.

“The Day I Put On The Crown”

I look into the mirror infinitely

I see Me in it’s own reality

Existing in non-reality

Let Me be-loved forever

Within mirrors of mirrors

We will never be asunder.

And I love Rasul Allah. Its worrying that Rasul Allah is not here in this present time and space where many leaders are oppressive, and many Muslim leaders are becoming as how they were scripted. Rasul Allah must be worry sick about Us. Allahumma Salli’ala Sayidina Muhammad… Better We practice Al-Asr.

To be continued…

Eternal Love : Part 06

A blog by Current Value | Proclaim – I write this for myself (critique, condemn, argue, advice for myself). If readers find any good in it, glory and praise be for Allah alone. Bismillahi Al-Rahman Al-Raheem. “We”, “Our”, and “Us” refer to myself -  “I” the soul + “I” the human. That’s how I talk to My Self, as “We”.

ETERNAL LOVE : PART 06 - I AM A LOSER

To further the realisation of me being a worthless, valueless, stupid Abdal, I have to understand this reality, that all Insan are born losers. Yes everyone is a loser, and were born as losers. A born loser. The minute We get Our money, its lost for food. The minute We get Our food, its lost in Our tummy. And then We go to the toilet and crap a mess, which is Ours at first, the smelly crap, but it will be lost to the sewer when We flush the toilet. A loser by nature. I loss my dad, my friends, my money, my love, my want, my dreams, my happiness, my whatever. Sooner or later I will loose ‘everything’, cos ‘everything’ belongs to Allah. And since ‘everything’ is just an Illusion in this 3D realm, I technically have nothing. Only Illusions. We lost everything and We have nothing. A frickin pathetic born loser… Allah shows that all Insan are born losers with this Ayat:

“(Swear) By the Time

Finality, all Insan at LOSS!

Except – whom with Iman, and carry on the Saliha

And to one another with Haq, and to one another with Sabar.”

(Al-Asr)

Allah had said so with clarity above: All Insan are worthless, valueless, and stupid losers, from the day they were created, all the way to the Judgment Day. Everyone at loss. Except – those listed in the Surah. When a loser do the four main actions mentioned in Al-Asr, a loser will be given a value, like a password for usage at Judgement Day. The word “Except” in the Ayat obviously show how to stop being a stupid loser forever… “Except – whom with Iman, and carry on the Saliha”. The Ayat is a pair, so its better if We try to exercise the pair.

Who are those with Iman and carry on the Saliha? Those are the Insan who understand ‘success’… What is ‘success’? It is what is being proclaimed by the Azan, “Haya’alaSalah, Haya’alalFalah…”. Thus ‘success’ is Salat and Salat is ‘success’. So when people ask Us what is the meaning of ‘success’, We say it means Salat, the proof of Iman, The Key to not being a born loser… It is about Eternal Love. Those with the highest Iman and Saliha, with the strongest love for Allah, and whom Allah loves the most, the greatest Abdals who gained bountiful Divine Knowledge (like Rasul Allah) are doing the Salat thousand times more than everyone else. Salat thousand times more than everyone else, at one third of the night only, for they know ‘success’ as a word and beyond it’s meaning. No Salat, no ‘success’ in this life and the future.

If the born losers (all the Insan that exist) wanna be successful, they gotta perform Salat… A Salat with the nonexistent of god ego – that is being worthless, valueless, hopeless, stupid loser Abdal, who can’t never feel Riya’ (proud, boastful, showoff) in the act of Salat. If not, they may stay as born losers forever… Those dodgy people, self-proclaimed ‘wali’ or ‘mystical sufi’ who avoid performing the ritual of Salat for reasons created by their “thinking” and “reasoning” are already at loss. Do NOT follow them… Follow Rasul Allah who is the Zenith of Insan Al-Kamil the Best Light.

Before Rasul Allah died, one of his Wasiah was, “Take care of Salat, take care of Salat, take care of your Promises…”. Salat is very-very important… So We should try to practice Salat. At least the Fard ones… If We can’t do all five in a day, We do a few. But if We afraid We’ll forget and miss Salat, We say, “O Allah, remind me of the Salat, and remind me to thank You for the Salat.”. If We afraid that We’ll be lazy, We say, “Lahawla Walaquwata Illabillah.” meaning, “No motion, and no energy, except by Allah.”. Allah is The Authority of motion, energy, knowledge, phenomena, noumena, feelings, fate, Salat and everything. So we ask Allah for everything, that is better and more intelligent for a hopeless stupid loser Abdal like Us.

After we practice the Iman and Saliha through Salat, we are not a born loser anymore, but a 50-50 loser, in short still a loser… So we have to practice the next Ayat. Like previous Ayat, the last Ayat is a pair too, “…to one another with Haq, and to one another with Sabar”.

In the context of Advising and Teaching, the last Ayat teaches Us that when we advice or teach adult Muslims the matter of Haq, such as Salat, we must not increase our voice in anger, and then get angry if a Muslim doesn’t perform Salat, cos that’s not connecting one another with Haq and Sabar, that’s Obviously criticising and getting angry, and obviously being proud of one’s ability to Salat. That frickin god ego again… hence “Finality, all Insan at LOSS!…” We as Abdal must understand that all matters of Haq (Salat, Zikir, Halal, Haram, fasting, charity, etc.) is a Nikmah given to specific Muslim as a TEST. Not to be boast about – cos IT IS A TEST… So when Allah Al-Raheem gives me the Time, the Space, the Motion, and the Energy to perform Salat, I acknowledged that as a Nikmah. I can feel it as a Nikmah – a Special Gift – thus I thank Allah… If We do not thank Allah for being able to perform Salat, We are A FAILURE, We failed THE TEST of an Abdal.

We should ask from Allah to enable me to perform Salat whenever and wherever, cos Salat is The Heaviest Matter in the universe, and also ask to remind me to thank Allah for it… With the knowing about the reality of matter of The Haq, We should have sympathy for those who do not practice the matter of Haq, ergo they haven’t experience the Nikmah, the unique joy of practicing The Deen. So, when We advice or teach them, We try our best to do it with mercy, with understanding, with humbleness – Sabar. Pity them… Sabar is not ‘endurance’ against anger. No… Sabar is knowing and acceptance. Sabar is the property of Allah Al-Sabur. How does Allah Al-Sabur put up with the stupid loser Abdal like me who always make mistakes in life?.. Sabar, knowing and acceptance. Allah’s Mercy for them and for me…

By Allah’s Eternal Love and by Surah Al-Asr, those who forced the non-Muslims to convert to Islam by the use of swords (force) and by exploiting Surah Al-Tawbah: Ayat 5 (without studying it’s Asbabun Nuzul carefully), are definitely in the state of – It’s a Finality, all Insan at LOSS! – and what follows, “And to one another with Haq, and to one another with Sabar” is the antithesis of their aggression, Allah DOES NOT love the belligerent aggressor, be them Muslims or not.

How can anybody love Allah, when they can’t even love the Muslim who threatened non-Muslims with the sword and say, “Convert to Islam or be killed”?… They might convert, but they’ll hate the Muslim and Allah, they’ll definitely fake their Islam (Al-Baqarah:15). What would a Muslimin and Muslimah feel if someone force them like that? Happy? Crap in the pants?… And thus Allah will send down Great Vengeance upon arrogant Muslims whom transgressed as above, and they’ll be humiliated, like those in the news, and like those of the crumbling Uthmaniah Empire. “It’s a Finality, all Insan at LOSS!” – be them Muslim or not, Except those mentioned in Al-Asr.

Fear Allah Almighty… By The Quran, killing is only Halal onto those (1) who violate treaties, (2) who physically attack, and (3) who planned to physically attack. Within this three situations, its better to die in the hand of the attacker. If Muslims are afraid to die in the hand of the attacker (Syahid), they should not go to war. Hide in a bunker like Sadam or Osama… Other than those three situations, killing is a horrible sin, to initiate war on non-Muslim who never did the above three actions is Haram, forced conversion is a cruelty – which Rasul Allah and Allah hate. “Attack in Fisabilillah those who attack you, and DO NOT transgress, for sure Allah DOES NOT love the transgressors.” (Al-Baqarah:190). Be not an arrogant transgressing angry Muslim who is a disgrace to Allah, who if We teleport him back to the middle of battle of Uhud will definitely pee in his pants and faint… instead be a noble brave Abdal.

To spread the matter of Haq in the state of Sabar is more intelligent and challenging than using the swords or force or shouting like monkeys. Monkeys are those whom Allah made busy in arguments on Mazhab vs Mazhab, or Salafi vs Wahabi etc. It’s not a joke, that’s how they appear as ‘value’. They argue as monkeys about what they “think” they know. They didn’t realised what “thinking” is. But that is their fate, a reflection of Our egoistic nature. So We avoid that and leave them with their fate. Them and We should practice Al-Asr…

The sword, or shouting, or demeaning other people, or any form of force, is an illusion – illusive power. The Real Power is with Allah and is given to those who perform Jihad – in English “Jihad” means “Struggle” – precisely, to perform Struggle against one’s ego (becoming Sabar) as stated in Surah Al-Asr. Allah loves and supports those who Jihad and annihilate his/her own ego, thus helping them stop being a born loser… Those who spreads the matter of Haq without Sabar, but with swords, anger, hatred, arrogance, machoism, shouting and ego, are already at loss. “Finality, all Insan at LOSS! Except..”. Pity them… May Allah’s Mercy be on them and be on Us cos We are no better than them.

For Allah,

“And some days in the midst of Time,

when they ask me if I knew You,

I smile and say, You were a Friend of mine,

And the sadness will be lifted before my eyes…”

- Old and Wise, The Alan Parson Project

To be continued…

Eternal Love : Part 05

A blog by Current Value | Proclaim – I write this for myself (critique, condemn, argue, advice for myself). If readers find any good in it, glory and praise be for Allah alone. Bismillahi Al-Rahman Al-Raheem. “We”, “Our”, and “Us” refer to myself -  “I” the soul + “I” the human. That’s how I talk to My Self, as “We”.

ETERNAL LOVE : PART 05 – I AM SO STUPID

To further the realisation of me being a worthless, valueless Abdal, I have to understand the reality of intellect – that all insan are pathetically stupid in relation to Allah The Real Intellect. Thus I as the Abdal must say, “I am stupid, even though I know some things. My knowledge is only a small reflection of Allah’s Knowledge. Thus I couldn’t be proud of what I know, and cannot claim that I’m smarter than anyone.”

Insan, the slave of Allah, does not actually “think” or come out with ideas and opinion. Whatever data stored in the mind (3D realm memory bank) or in the Qalb (Divine memory bank) are reflections of information projected by Allah Al-Raheem. The data will stay there in the memory bank as mere reflection – like writings reflected in the mirror – as long as Allah wants it to be reflected, or as long as Our relationship with Allah is good and pure. And Allah can definitely delete the reflection of data in the mind and the Qalb anytime. So We should not be proud of our knowledge. Must not. The only thing We can do with what is being reflected in Our mind and Qalb is to share it. The information projected by Allah to Our mind and Qalb are as a guidance and a Test. And the Test is tricky, cos Syaitan is always there to blow the ego like oxygen to a burning coal… So We should not be Riya’ (proud, boastful, arrogant), We should really kill our god ego so we can be aware of what We say and how We say it, and maintain Our status as stupid dumbass peace of crap Abdal.

What is “thinking”? Can “thinking” think about itself per se?… Heidegger the philosopher can’t answer that cos he didn’t study The Quran. Its okay, its his fate to narrowed down “thinking” to etymology only… Thinking is a property of the mind, or as a whole is called Aqli/ Aqal. “Thinking” is a thing, a product, a processor program created by Allah. It is a Makhluk (created being), the same as other Makhluk. “Thinking” as well as all other created beings (beside human) are aware of themselves as the slave of Allah, the Ibadillahi Salihin, as Ibnu Al-Arabi stated clearly in his Futuhat. Thus everything beside Allah (mahkluk/ created being) including quarks and particles whom together became an object, and the object itself such as a rock or a kidney, are aware of themselves as Ibadillahi Salihin and are observing us while glorifying Allah non-stop. They become our witness at the Judgment Day and they definitely can speak and confirm the reports by Raqib** and Atib**. No one can escape from The Truth. Our “thinking” will spill all our memories to majillion of people at Mahsyar. Our “thinking” will talk and confess. (**Raqib & Atib, the Recorder Angels, recording Insan’s 3D action in audio-visual format, like a doco movie. The recording will be displayed publicly at the Judgement Day, and trillion of Insan can see my pathetic facial expression when I’m jerking off in nude. What a stupid Insan I am. May Allah hide my movie at the Judgement Day. Amin.)

Knowing this, how could an Abdal not respect and be amazed at the environment and the surroundings of particles and objects, including the unseen (Ibadillahi salihin)? And knowing this how could an Abdal claim his/her “thinking” belongs to him/her, or claim the ideas from “thinking” belongs to him/her? And craving credits for that, wanting recognition of his/her “idea”… “Thinking” belongs and copyrighted to Allah Alone… Nobody ever “think” on their own, it’s the “thinking” itself at work, processing reflections of informations from Allah, and following Allah’s command in every moment of existence, in definite measure as fated (programmed in the Kitab a.k.a. Lauh Mahfuz). Thus a Muslim Gnostic “see” and “think” differently from a Creationist, while a Creationist “see” and “think” differently from a Positive Scientist, and Positive Scientist “see” and “think” differently from a Natural Pantheist, and so on, as how Allah wants them to function in this finite 3D realm base on their “thinking”.

Everything got functions and planned beautifully. Even the infinitely positive and negative numbers are given functions in Allah’s Grand Equation of life, as darkness has specific essential function in relation to light…. Do scientists know what is the speed of Darkness? If the answer to the speed of darkness popped into their minds, who “popped” it there? They’ll say they popped it themselves through “thinking” and deserve Nobel Prize. Which is okay since Allah programmed them to function like that. But the Abdal’s function is to realised his/her own stupidity and dependency on Allah The Absolute Intellect.

Insan never “think”. EVER. Insan only use and experience “thinking”, like an application. Thus an Abdal should not be proud of his/her ideas or opinion, since it came from Allah, and Allah can put the wrong information or the wrong ideas in their minds for learning purpose. Something wrong can be incepted into the “thinking” to discover something true. For example to teach the reality of ILLUSION, Allah gives Insan the freedom to buy stuff using money and to control situation. By applying “thinking” I realised that when being threatened with Death, I’m not gonna loose my “freedom”, or “control”, or stuff that I “own”, but I will definitely loose my ILLUSION of “control”, “freedom”, and “ownership”.

When We want a Ruh (soul) to sense the existence of “thinking”, We insert the soul in a bodysuit, where the suit is equipped with sensing faculties (seeing, hearing, touching etc) which process the sea of informations ‘out there’ (memories programmed in nonexistent realm) and then translated the informations as his “life experience” which is limited to 3 Dimensions only, with Time as a continuous infinitesimal dots of experience in seriatim. We constructed the 3D realm as a long enclosed corridor, from point A to point B, where both ends are walls (no exit). The floor is a long asphalt road where in the middle of the road is a huge hole. The man’s Nafs will push the Ever Stationary Soul to “take opposite action”, so the man at rest starts to move from one end of corridor (point A) to the other end (point B). As programmed, he will definitely falls into the huge hole since We didn’t teach him about the names (forms and meaning) of objects in the 3D realm, yet. When he falls face first, with blood and broken nose, he feels terrible pain. This We register in his DRAM (dynamic random access memory) in the brain.

Now the bloody injured man gets out from the hole, feeling pain, and continue walking to point B, where he finds nothing is there. But at least now he can perceived the 3 dimensional ‘space’ of the corridor. This We register in his DRAM. His Nafs will automatically encourages him to walk back to point A. On the way, infront of him, he sees the same huge hole, and We put his DRAM at work thus he remembers the memory – the frickin pain of falling. He stops, stares, and he experiences “thinking” of not wanting pain, of wanting to avoid pain. We already programmed finite probability of solutions within his “thinking”, he chooses one and act as programmed, so he walks beside the hole, thus not falling into it, ergo no pain… The conscious soul in the bodysuit, naturally as the god ego, will be pleased of itself and praise itself, “Cogito ergo sum! MY IDEA works! I am so smart! Praise be to myself!…”. He believes he is “thinking” and “thinking” is his, and he cannot comprehend that “thinking” is just another functional being, a product that We created and have Total Control of it. If We doesn’t put “knowing” in his mind, he will never know. Frickin Tabula Rasa. That is how damn stupid Insan are. But… Allah Mercy is above Allah Wrath.

From the above Iqra, knowing how fragile and stupid We are, We as Abdal should always ask from Allah for guidance, by following how Rasul Allah asked from Allah regarding guidance, understanding, knowledge and knowing… And also ask for forgiveness from Allah if ever We choose crappy solutions, cos that’s what We the dumbass Abdal are bound to do, mistakes. We should try our best to follow Rasul Allah.

Now, do We feel stupid already? Yes We are stupid, so We shouldn’t look down at other people and their fated life program… Our knowing about this 3D life experience are only reflections of memories in seriatim (securely kept in the infinite probabilities of memories within Lauh Mahfuz, already done and sealed, signed off by Allah – “My Mercy will be above My Wrath”) which Allah projected onto our mind, through experiencing this life with our 3D sensing faculties. And the “knowledge” stays there in Our mind as reflection, as long as Allah wished. What We witness ‘outside’ infront of Us that we called “Life” are actually a reflection, like a mirror image, of Our mind at works. Thus looking into sub-atomic level of life, what I see is actually the reflection of the holy mind at work, receiving and reflecting vibrating waves of projected memories (programmed information of past, present and future, which already ended) which are within the equation of infinite probabilistic universes written (scripted by The Qalam) in Lauh Mahfuz, which are within Allah’s Almighty Power of Al-Malik, below Allah’s Throne. Can We comprehend how Totally Awesome is Allah, and how stupid We are?

The same as Divine Wisdom and Knowing which is projected onto Our Qalb. The reflection of Divine Knowing let us understand the cosmos more than our 3D mind/ brain can take. There are more than 3 dimensions in the cosmos, and it’s super busy and far more beautiful, filled with beautiful noises or composition in colors, but our mind/ brain is limited to 3 dimensions only, thus Divine Knowing reflected in the Qalb help us appreciate the cosmos in new light, not as pure enjoyment, but as A Grand Reminder of Who is The God, “To whom the Supremacy belongs today?” (Al-Ghafir:16). And the reflection stays there in the Qalb as long as Allah wants. So We have to be humble, very-very humble, or else We will loose it. The minute We proudly says, “I know better than you”, that’s it, We are gonna get it from Allah. Bad shits will happen to Us…

It’s not about what We want, it’s about what Allah wants Us to have and how We should appreciate it in relation to Allah The Authority. When We know how to appreciate this 3D life with it’s positive and negative, heroes and enemies, heartbreaks and joys, while being a humble-humble slave, Allah will Love us, We will gradually feel that Eternal Love once again. Insha Allah. We should try our best to follow Rasul Allah – the best of Allah’s slave and most beloved, the Most humble among Insan, the epitome of relationship of slave and The Master. Its not about what Rasul Allah wear, it’s about his Qalb. His Qalb. His point of merciful view.

All these (life, events, phenomena, characters and knowledge in 3D realm) were scripted down by Allah as part of Allah grand plan for those who practice The Deen – Islam, Iman and Ikhsan (ritual, faith and reality), and for those who, beside the Deen, practice Iqra’bismirRabbikalazihalaq, and also for those who do not believe in Allah… In the end IT IS about the relationship of All the Insan and Allah (doesn’t matter where it ends, Insan remain as slave), and the relationship of the witnessing Abdal (sans their god ego, hence the Shahadah) with everybody else. And all belongs to Allah alone… How can We not be in love and in need of Allah forever, when We know that We are actually stupid, dumbass, have no real values, have no ownership and control – except merely Illusions… The only real thing We have is this melancholic eternal feeling of wanting to be together with ‘someone special’ forever and ever, and ever, and ever. And that some One is Allah Al-Wadud The Eternal Loving… We love Allah The Eternal – guide Us with Your Love, teach Us what I never be able to know of. “Allamal Insana Malam Ya’lam.” (Al-Alaq:5)… Let’s write a poem of Our stupidity…

“For the Love of The God”

Glory belongs to Allah alone,

The Most Beautiful, The Absolute Intellect,

Who placed into human’s weak minds

“Thoughts” they are unable to think of,

Who placed into human’s hearts

“Love” they can’t compare with.

To be continued…

Eternal Love : Part 04

A blog by Current Value | Proclaim – I write this for myself (critique, condemn, argue, advice for myself). If readers find any good in it, glory and praise be for Allah alone. Bismillahi Al-Rahman Al-Raheem. “We”, “Our”, and “Us” refer to myself -  “I” the soul + “I” the human. That’s how I talk to My Self, as “We”.

ETERNAL LOVE : PART 04 – NOTES FOR PART 01, 02 & 03

I, the Breathing Soul, who are immersed in all Insans’ bodies can be in True Eternal Love with The God because I am The Soul – I am not a male or a female, I never young and never old, I begun but never end, I exist and not Exist, I’m real but not Real, I have no shape or limbs or sexual organ but I am a form, I am not tall or short but I am being, I am a soul breathing (conscious) in many characters of the Insan as many individual beings. I am the one who forever conscious. I will live forever because Allah said so. Even in “death” I’m conscious, fully awake and alive. I will never go “dead” and “blank” because Allah doesn’t want me be “dead” or become nonexistent. Allah wants me to exist forever – but I’m unable to come into existence continuously without Allah’s Eternal Love (though I really-really love to exist forever) cos I’m not Allah. I am NOT The God and I am NOT Al-Haq, but when I see Al-Haq, We say “I AM YOU”… I am only a reflection of Allah’s Image. Artificial Existent – an image in a mirror. Hence Allah loves me forever, and forever I love Allah, innately… Give me joy in Thanking You O Allah.

I am so grateful for becoming of a ‘reality’ called ‘being’, like Allah, which shall be for infinity, even though I am not as Eternal, as Perfect, and as Real as Allah. Only a reflection. But I’m thankful O Allah. I am The Infinity (Abadi) and I begun at zero to forever, while The Eternal (Azali) never begun, thus ‘ending’ is redundant. At the moment of this writing, I’m not the primordial singular being I was, now ‘I am’ within this character who is writing this text, and within everyone else who are reading this text – thus I become individual soul in many individual characters -  who experience life separately (yet infinitely connected) in this finite three dimensional realm (Finite/Fana), which exists within the Infinite dimensional realm (Infinite/Abadi), which is being with Al-Haq The Eternal (Eternal/Azali), where Allah is the centre of all existents but not the centre of Al-Haq The Eternal. Hence all points lead to Allah, but not to Allah’s Divine Essence The No-thingness of Al-Haq The Eternal. Without Allah, I am not “I am” anymore, just a meaningless nonexistent, not to be known. So my being as a conscious soul is forever and constantly breathed into existent by Allah’s Power of Eternal Love, in the life of this writing Insan, and in all other Insan. A singular Eternal Love in plural consciousness… I cannot exist without You O Allah.

I don’t belong to anyone, or any race, or any nation, or any prime minister, or any sheikh, or any group or tariqat, except to Allah alone. I dont belong here in this 3D realm, here is just a temporary realm for me to kill (to Fana) the god ego in me, the ego of “I am so”, which is the only way for me to be the perfect Abdal and uphold Al-Haq as The God forever. That’s what I promised to do before everything begins, Al-Haq as The God, and I will be the many Insan without the god ego in me, and I love that. We will do a lot of stuff together forever, and I will be taken care by Allah while I be the Insan. That’s why I am totally dependent on Allah. Can’t live for a moment without Allah. I love Allah and always need Allah The Eternal. I don’t wanna be not exist. I wanna be exist and being, as an Insan, with You The Giver of Life forever. And I love it being an Insan, and I love You for being Allah… I’m forever Yours O Allah.

I love it being an Insan, this is the most intelligent way to witness and admire You The Incomprehensible One. I know I have no value, a stupid loser, got no Real Face/Image like You, but You always makes me feel valuable, that my value is by always being your beloved Abdal. That’s the only Real value that I can think of my existent. Other than that, beside You The Eternal, everything else are meaningless. But they are so meaningful in this life, in this 3D realm. And this realm is amazing! Even my nail is amazing. The water is beautiful. The fractals are amazingly beautiful. And the illusion of ‘depth’ is mind-blowing amazing. And being everywhere at the same time is utter amazement… Show me more Real Truth O Allah.

In this 3D realm, a lot of Allah’s artwork and creativity amazed me. The taste ‘spicy’ amazed me. I still can’t understand how do You create ‘spicy’ when there is no reference in You The Eternal. ‘Spicy’ is meaningless in The Eternal You. But How did ‘spicy’ come into Your Creativity? How did You created this particular taste ‘spicy’ in The Eternal You, and linked it to some particles in this realm that humans believe that it really came from that particles? And then hide it real purpose and presented it as an “effect” of a “cause”? How did You do that?… You are Absolutely Amazing O Allah. Always Perplexing and Amazing. I just can’t understand how You created the cosmos of life in all it’s simplest complexity, in all it’s organised randomness, in all it’s perfect imperfection, and in all it’s logical illogical that when I observe the infinitely “small”, the world becomes “infinitely gigantic”, where infinite small is the infinitely huge, infinite nearness is the infinitely far, infinite visible is the infinitely invisible. Totally awesome is You! And I love this illusive realm… Everything in it, I love and respect till I can’t step on an ant for I will feel like shite. I did stepped on snails for few times, accidentally. It felt terrible and ugly. I hate stepping on snails and break them. But at least I experienced “repulsiveness”. If not I never know what is that ‘ugly’ feelings. I love all the feelings that You had created for they are intelligently composed for specific reason… Teach me the Noble Reality O Allah.

I love everything that Allah created be it a dust, a syrup, a teacher or an infidel. This ‘love’ is the amazement, respect and appreciation – it leads to knowing. I love lions, but I know they can bite my head off, so I watch them form afar, in YouTube, study and appreciate them as a dangerous entity created by Allah’s Intellectual and Creative Power. I respect the enemy, without the enemy I cannot become the hero. Without the darkness I cannot be aware of the light. I love Allah and I wanna be the hero for Allah. I wanna show off to Allah that I am Allah’s hero cos I love Allah. But it is not with stupidity to become a hero cos the enemy is well equipped ‘materially’. Lions are powerful, their paw is as big as my head, but Allah’s Intellect is more powerful, that should be my crown, the Divine Intellect that solve the puzzle of life. But my Qalb has to be constantly clean and crystal clear so that the Divine Intellect can be reflected in me constantly, and see things beyond it’s form, and be able to perform my duty as the Khalifah, though not grand… Grab me by my Qalb O Allah.

I love movies, chair, foods, the internet, quantum physics, and everything that Allah created in it’s multiplicity of variations. Human “thought” they created these things, but it is Allah who created everything and put them into the Kitab (Lauh Mahfuz) – everything belongs to Allah alone. And the infinite potential of the ready made forms is reflected into human’s mind as a test. That is all, a test for the god ego… The “idea” is already there in the Kitab, including the next Lexus, the next genocide, and the next movie by Michael Bay which will be out at specific time and space. And then the Insan’s god ego says, “I know.” so proudly, and says, “My idea is better than yours”, and says, “My theory and way is more truer than yours.”, and says, “My Mazhab is better than yours.”, and says, “My Sufi Sheikh is closer to god than yours.”, and says, “The Atheist are stupid because they cannot comprehend god”. But Allah already got a mercy for them and for what they have said and will say, because “Upon this, My Mercy will be above My Wrath” said You, The Merciful, The Keeper of Promises… Put me in Your Good Promise O Allah.

I wonder is there in this realm, at this time, anyone else like me? I know You Allah and the reality of this cosmos You created. Though not much. But I don’t think I am better than anyone like me. Because I watch porn movies. The male characters in porn movies or in those home made porn clip, they are like so eager into having what they can’t have forever. So eager to work on grabbing the finality. Their winning in ‘getting it’ is their loss in infinite continuity. I think life is like porn movies, where a lot of people try hard to work on grabbing it, always want, and want it fast. Fake values are projected out of ego – the needs to be witnessed, to dominate, to show authority, to be applauded by millions on a stage and to be praised, “You are the best! Gung-ho!”, to be better and greater than the other Insan, while they are not, cos those are merely the reflection of The God Ego (which We should delete). But I can’t judge them. It is their script that You had written for them, and they loved the script. Great actors We are the breathing souls. So totally into the characters that many totally forgot You The Creator. But You are The Merciful… Write me a good script O Allah.

As an Insan, I wanna be like Rasul Allah because he enjoys most the Divine Knowledge. HE is the only one who met Allah while still breathing in this life, met Allah with his mind, body and soul – as an Insan (unlike those who only being ‘transcended’ spiritually to nonexistent, not even meeting You at The Throne), and Rasul Allah was traveling beyond 3D surface on that Buraq being. I love that Buraq, reminds me of Einstein’s observation, Allah is Totally Amazing!.. Rasul Allah is the only One who dare took the worst of the worst of even the worst pain of heartbreaks in this realm. I am a lot more coward than Rasul Allah. I’m so hopeless… Tie my hands to Your Rope O Allah.

I don’t think I can live like Rasul Allah everyday, like, after ablution and dressed up cleanly, he went outside just to get people spit on him in hatred, stones and dog shites thrown at him, and screamed at with bitter words. And they were laughing at him, like people watching a stupid accident of a retard in YouTube… I know how it feels, when We are telling the truth, people are making fun at Our words and call Us crazy, and smirks… It sad, so sad, it’s getting more and more absurd. And so Rasul Allah’s clothe and body became dirty and smelly, and he must clean it and take ablution again. Again and again. And again, everyday. Spits, shites, stones, bitter words, physical threat, sanction, heartbreak, ass kicked – it was tragically sad. Poor Rasul Allah. I cried for Rasul Allah, I love him, and am thankful for not a dot of anger he felt at those people, only Mercy. If Rasul Allah ever gotten mad angry, this entire cosmos and everything else would have been wiped out by Allah to nonexistent immediately. Total shutdown… I am thankful for Rasul Allah’s decision to be the one Neo, for because of him, it is proven that everything that Allah had created is not a waste, and life is still here, not deleted. Respect for Rasul Allah!… Allahumma Sali’ala Habibika Sayidina Muhammad!… The cosmos You created is not a waste O Allah. This life is not a waste O Angels. It must exist forever in peace after this one. I want it to exist forever, please. I love witnessing it, experiencing it and Iqra’bismirRabbikalazihalaq about it… Make me be a cool dude, at least, like Your Rasul, O Allah.

But I am the worst Abdal right? Cos I watched porn. If there is anyone like me, I must be the worst, the last in line, the most stupidest one. But it’s comforting to have Allah in this finite life and the future. Even though I’m the most crappiest of them all, You still love me and give me, and give, and give… La ilahailla Anta subhanaKa, innikuntumina zalimin… You are The Best O Allah The Eternal! I truly love You eternally, The One and Only, together forever. You are always on my mind, You are always…

“I do, love You”

No-thingness – Adage

No greeting or acknowledge

No centre neither edge

Being without pledge

 

No-thingness – Nigh

Only I can witness I

Be the mirror created by

Being We, I and I

 

And so We greet, I do

And so We pledge, I do

And so We uphold, I do

 

We the Centre to be Witnessed, I do

We the Witnesses of the Centre, I do

Sent down meanings definitely measured, I do

 

Beyond meanings We aver, ‘I do witness You’

Thus I love You – and I love You too

Together, forever, for You, I do

to be continued…